Giving Well During the Holidays (and Beyond)

We have entered the time of year when many of us are considering what gifts we will give over the holidays. Most of these gifts are likely to be designated for family, friends, co-workers…perhaps also for neighbors, the postal worker, or you child’s teacher or the barista that knows exactly what you want before you place your order. In addition to this kind of giving, many of us will also give in some way to some type of charity, non-profit, ministry, “cause,” etc. Today I want to offer a few suggestions on ways to give well both now and throughout the year, inspired in part by my work in a domestic violence shelter. Each of the ideas below highlights an aspect of what I think it means to give well. It is certainly not an exhaustive list and I’m sure many of you have additional ideas you can share!

1. Make sure what you’re giving is what is needed (or even wanted)

We humans are often quite good at the art of assumption. We think we know. We even insist that we know. We have an idea or see one online or borrow an idea from someone else. But here’s the thing. Sometimes we’re wrong. Sometimes our idea is terrible. Sometimes it’s just mediocrely bad. Sometimes it’s counter-productive. Even with the best intentions. It’s super important in our giving to start with one key activity: listen. Listen. Listen. Ask what is needed (or wanted). Take the time to hear from the intended recipient(s) – whether this is an individual, a group, an organization.

Let me share a few examples from my shelter world. If you approached me today and told me your group wants to collect some items for the shelter and you’re wondering what would be helpful, here’s what I would tell you: Towels (they disappear the way socks disappear in the dryer). Coats for adults. Full-size hygiene products. Hair products for African-American hair. New sports bras (NOT regular bras). House shoes for children and adults. You know what I would tell you we don’t need? Coats for children. Feminine hygiene products. Travel size anything. Bibles. If you were to ask me two months from now, the lists could be completely different. Ask a different shelter and their needs could be completely different. I have literally cheered when towel donations arrived and some of our staff have recently begged me not to accept more travel size toiletries. Almost all of the items on the “not needed” list are things we have needed at various points in time – but storage space is limited and sometimes we get larger donations that fill the need from several months. Always check first before showing up with a load of donations.

2. Don’t create more work

This is another one that well-intentioned givers sometimes miss. Ask about the best way to provide certain items. Is it more convenient for the organization to have pre-assembled kits/bags/purses/backpacks of food/hygiene products/school supplies or is it more convenient to receive donations organized by item (a box of shampoo, box of notebooks, bag of pens, etc.)? This will vary, but it is really helpful to ask and can ensure you’re not actually creating more work for the staff or volunteers at that organization. In the case of our shelter, organizing donations by item is much more helpful (primarily due to storage space as well as a few other reasons) – unfortunately when a group doesn’t check first, we often end up having to disassemble pre-made kits. But for another group it may be incredibly helpful to receive donations in that way. Consider also whether you’re giving means an entire event has to be created around the donation – are you okay with backpacks being handed out as needed or are you expected the organization to organize an entire back-to-school event? And are you willing to volunteer and/or provide the additional resources needed for that event?

3. MAKE SURE you are valuing the dignity and worth of the recipients of your donations

Your donations should reflect your belief in the dignity and worth of the recipients. They should support empowerment. First of all, check your basic assumptions about and feelings toward the recipients. Feeling empathy & compassion? Great. Pity? No thanks. “Oh those poor __________”. Nope. “I’m sure they would be grateful for anything.” Please stop. Here’s the thing. People notice when you are looking down on them (whether in pity or contempt). People notice when you donate shit. They may or may not point it out, they may or may not still accept the donation, but you are shaming them. You are treating them as less than. If you know those cheap granola bars taste like cardboard, don’t hand them out to the homeless. If you know that set of sheets might as well be sandpaper, don’t donate them to a shelter. IF YOU HAVE ALREADY USED HALF A PALLET OF EYE SHADOW DO NOT DONATE IT TO A WOMEN’S SHELTER (sorry, it’s happened…more than once…that’s gross fam). If you know those toys will break after one use, do not donate them as Christmas gifts. If it’s trash, throw it in the trash – don’t donate it to a non-profit.

4. It’s not about you

This one can be difficult for us to catch (and then again, sometimes it is quite obviously stated). Make sure the giving is truly about the recipient. Not about the picture for your social media page (not saying you can’t post about it…but check yourself and your motives for posting what you post). Not about the tax right off. Not about feeling good about yourself and patting yourself on the back. Not about your hidden or not-so-hidden religious agenda (this one fires me up…if you’re giving comes with strings attached whether insisting on putting Bibles in every bag or proselytizing in the card you write or that recipients have to attend a Bible study or service or something to receive the items or that you want an invitation to come in and lead a religious gathering if you’re going to bring donations… STOP. IT.). I have heard plenty of churches and religious groups (and a pastor I once worked for) say that if the “project” was not likely to produce “results” (i.e. Church attendance or conversions or something of the like), they would not support it. That’s not okay. And if you consider yourself Christian, that is not the way of Jesus.

Please also do not demand gratitude or recognition in a particular way. It still shocks me sometimes how offended people get when they feel their donation was not adequately appreciated. It’s not for you to determine what that looks like. I’m not saying gratitude isn’t important. But sulking or pouting in response to your perceived lack of gratitude is seriously not okay. Additionally, it’s really important to consider what might be fueling the response you’re getting. If the recipient of your donation appears to be responding in an entitled manner or doesn’t appear very excited or struggles to look you in the eye…perhaps this is actually an opportunity to consider how your giving approach may have impacted them (or our larger approach to giving in this culture). Maybe your giving made the recipient feel small or insignificant or needy or like a “charity case.” Maybe you were paternalistic in what you said or how you interacted. Maybe your approach was disempowering. Maybe the exchange amplified your privilege compared to their oppression or marginalization. If the recipient is an organization, maybe they’re tired. Burned out. Frustrated by the strings you attach to your giving. Irritated that you didn’t ask before showing up with a load of items that aren’t actually needed.

This will take a lot of soul-searching and reflecting and listening to sort out. And leads us to the next suggestion.

5. Allow your giving to lead you to bigger questions

Many people find themselves drawn to a particular issue or cause when they choose to give – maybe it’s to those who are homeless or to children with terminal illnesses or to women who have experienced domestic violence or to those with physical disabilities. I would invite you into a deeper understanding of the roots of those issues and/or the needs created by those issues. I invite you to ask questions and to learn more about why your giving is needed/wanted. And I would invite you to move from individualistic ideas & explanations to an understanding of broader social & systemic issues that are the foundation for the challenges impacting the recipients of your giving.

Here’s what I mean. If you give to a domestic violence shelter, consider what is going on that those needs exist. What allows domestic violence to flourish in our society (and it does flourish)? How do our ideas about gender, for example, contribute to this? You might also ask yourself what is needed so that victims/survivors wouldn’t need to stay in shelter? This would lead you to consider various economic factors, including questions about affordable housing, affordable childcare, making a living wage, the gender pay gap, etc. You might also consider what it is about our society, our views on government (and who is responsible for caring for marginalized and oppressed communities), on wealth distribution that makes something as simple (and essential) as towels such a needed donation for a shelter and why resources are so limited.

Allow yourself to be stretched and to consider how you might play a part in getting to the root of social problems. For most of us, this will involve a disruption of your world view. It will mean asking difficult questions of yourself. It will mean you’ve likely perpetuated these issues (whether you intended to or not). It may mean coming to point where you realize you’ve “been doing it all wrong.” Lean into all of that. Keep going. It’s worth it. And it’s needed if we’re to create a better, more just world for all of us.

There are many, many more ways to give well. I may add an additional post, who knows. Feel free to share some of your giving approaches as well!

How Domestic Violence Is Influencing My Theology of Suffering

Most of us have a rather large aversion to suffering. Certainly to our own suffering. But also to truly seeing the suffering around us and in the world. We turn away. We avoid. We try to fix. We blame victims. We shrug our shoulders. We explain it away or explain why it’s necessary (for some kind of greater good). We use religious platitudes (“God works all things for the good…”). When Easter rolls around, we pause for half a breath on Friday and talk a bit about suffering (usually individual suffering…typically not things like systemic evil…), but always with the disclaimer that “Sunday’s coming!! Things are going to get better!! Just hang on!!”

It wasn’t until a few years ago that I began hearing a greater emphasis on suffering and on lament. And it was not in white evangelical circles that I heard these voices. It was almost exclusively leaders of color (some evangelical, some not) that brought this to my awareness. Leaders who pointed out systemic oppression and privilege. Soong-Chan Rah and Mark Charles are two voices that were particularly influential as I started considering new (to me) theological perspectives.

When we encounter the suffering of others, we have two choices: lean in or leave. Leaving means utilizing some type of avoidance, minimizing, denying, blaming, fixing (fixing is avoidant – it tends to be rooted in our own discomfort and is an attempt to make it all go away…quickly). Leaning in means bringing our whole selves into the space and listening. Seeing what is really happening. Believing. Sitting with the one(s) suffering. Holding space. Leaning in requires vulnerability.

My job requires daily leaning in. I am a counselor in a domestic violence shelter. My clients (primarily women) have encountered terrible abuse, generally by someone they love and who they thought loved them. Clients who are currently staying in the shelter are considered to be in “imminent danger.” Suffering and death are everpresent. I can’t tell you how many women have told me over the past year that “he almost killed me” and/or “he is going to kill me” and/or “if he finds me, he will kill me.” I can’t tell you how many more are in incredible danger, but may not recognize the risk. Or may not think there is a way out. Despair is a frequent visitor. I often wonder about certain women I have met along the way – whether they are safe, whether they are thriving, whether they are alive.

I never, EVER tell these women it’s going to be okay. That things are going to work out. Because sometimes it doesn’t get better. Sometimes, despite taking precautions and ample “safety planning” and getting a protective order and calling the police and leaving and going to a domestic violence shelter, abusers kill their (ex-)partners. And children. Sometimes, even when perpetrators don’t kill, they continue to inflict pain and suffering in a variety of ways on the victim for years. Often with little to no repercussions. Even when the victim has long sense left the relationship.

There is immense pain and suffering in the stories my clients tell. As much as I long to provide comfort and to fix it and to tell them the worst is over, I can’t. While we certainly take steps to address the impact of trauma in their lives, much of my work involves holding space and bearing witness to my client’s stories. To sit with them in their pain. To BELIEVE them – something so few people have chosen or choose to do when it comes to women’s experiences of domestic violence (not to mention sexual assault). To be present with them in this moment, not knowing what the next moment brings.

Suffering, death, and despair sound a lot more like Good Friday and Holy Saturday than Easter/Resurrection Sunday. Working with victims of domestic violence is a daily reminder of suffering in our world. It is a daily reminder of individual suffering as well as the suffering as a result of much larger systemic issues. Suffering as a result of patriarchy, toxic masculinity, misogyny. Suffering as a result of a flawed criminal justice system. Suffering that is amplified for domestic violence victims who are part of any number of marginalized groups in addition to being female (being a person of color, being LGBTQ+, being Muslim, being undocumented, being poor, being disabled, etc.). 

It is a daily reminder that people choose to inflict suffering on others. That people (including friends, family, and church members) choose not to support those who are suffering. That people and systems choose to look away. To blame victims and to tell them that if they had done things differently, none of this would have happened. 

Sunday doesn’t always come. Resurrection is not always where the story ends. Not when it comes to domestic violence. Not in this life anyway. The story sometimes ends in death and/or despair. Suffering is not always redemptive. I reject the notion that suffering is always God-ordained or somehow God’s will. I cannot look my clients in the eye as they tell me about the horrible abuse they have experienced and maintain that for some reason God wanted them to experience this. This kind of suffering is the result of choices made by other individuals and/or systems – by things the victim can’t possibly control. It is rooted in evil, not God.

Leaning in to a theology of suffering means not just looking to Jesus to fix it all and put a bow on it Easter Sunday. It means looking to Jesus when he was murdered by the state. Looking to Jesus when he was abused, abandoned, exposed, alone, Looking to Jesus when God was silent. It means sitting in the emptiness and despair of Holy Saturday. Wondering if there is any hope. Knowing you can’t go back to the certainty you thought you had or the way things were, yet not having any idea what is next. If there even is a future.

I want to have hope. As a therapist, my job includes “holding hope” at times when my clients cannot. I do the work that I do with the hope that in many cases, things will get better. I fight against oppressive systems and resist against patriarchy (among other things) because I hope for a different world. I hope for justice and redemption and resurrection.

And yet. 

Sometimes Sunday never comes.